We say goodnight, from our own seperate sides

Life is change
and change is life.
How do we know when we need change?
a fresh start, a new beginning, a new day?
Moreover, how do we know when the change we've made is good for us?
Do we smile more, eat more, laugh more, hug more?
Or are we just the same person we were before?
Sometimes I think the changes I've made have been good ones, and other times I wonder what I'm missing out on. I feel like I have two different lives...one here, and one there. I struggle to find a way to bring them all together, and sometimes wonder if it's even possible.
Then when I really get to thinking about it, I wonder where home really is. They say home is where the heart is....well my hearts in two different places. Will I always be split in two?
Do I let go of the past completely, or do I hold on to the people and places I miss and love?
Is my past forever my past, or will pieces of my past become part of my present?
...i need you so much closer...